I’m staying at Roxy’s house because i got thrown out. Roxy’s mum is the best mum i have ever met. She shouted me to go upstairs and eat, i was thinking about everything that has been happning over the past 2 weeks and it hurt me. ive been scared to talk about this for the past 2 weeks and i cant even think what would happen if i turned up home. i want to live life single handedly. i want to be able to see people i want to. My dad had restrictions about people who i dated. “you cant date coloured guys” “you cant date someone who is too old” … im too scared to actully so anything without a consious.

Im scared that life will catch me up in the making. i found a guy i like but hes taken then i find another guy and hes perfect. hes the type of guy i would date anyday.

I can’t wait to see him again. :)

At the begining of the two weeks i tried commiting suicide but i couldnt do it because i was thinking about my friends and how much i loved them and how much they have helped me. they are my family now. i love them too much to kill myself. i cant seem to do this anymore. im lying to my friends about who i am. i cant tell them the truth without hurting them. i love them too much.