Okay … new blog because i didn’t want the friends to know how depressed i really am.

I decided that i want to be able to live life to the max. i want to be able to see what i want and live how i want. When i next see the one i like i want to think wow … hes what i want not what the fuck am i going to do about my family. I’m fucked because i can’t think about hapy things in my life.

I tried to commit suicide but all of a sudden i though about my friends and how much they have done for me and that they are a better family to me then anyone else in my life. I love all my friends so much but i don’t know how to explain anything anymore. when they ask questions i cant answer them, they want me to explain it but i cant. i dont know how to.