January 2010
1 post
December 2009
4 posts
MAJOR UPDATE !!!
OKAY .. Over the past couple of weeks i haven’t said anything to anyone about this but its going to come out somewhere and this is it.. I’m getting sick of all this fucking shit that is coming out of my mums mouth !! i have a life now, i am having fun and she is ruiening it !!.. I want to be able to live my life without her fucking it up !! I’ve cried over this so much now!!.. I...
GOOD !!
I am HAPPY !!
I have a new boyfriend. His names Anton, he is GORGEOUS and has an amazing personality .. We connect so much and i have so much fun with him :)
ALSO !!.. Me and my mum are patching things up.. we are going to meet up at some point hopefully, she said she is going to text me but i dout it :/ At least i have spoken to her :) All i need todois talk to my dad and patch things...
HOW FUCKING PATHETIC DO YOU HAVE TO BE !!!
OMG !!.. I called the mother last night. I was telling her i need money and she said so.. and then i said im intitled to my part of the Family Allowance! and she said and.. and i said well it illigal to accept it because im not living there anymore! WTF!! I didn’t want to take it all off of her, i just wanted abit of money to help me out abit and shes saying fucking NO !!
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November 2009
10 posts
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Have you ever thought about your life and wrote down all the things you thought were mistakes?
I did that without thinking about it, and i filled 5 pages back and front even though i’m only 16. It seems like everything is my fault. I don’t understand why though.
I went to go and see Fran and i was talking to her about my mum because they have stopped talking. She started talking about spirits...
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I went to orchestra last night .. It was okay. i dont know half the musci and the concert is in 2 weeks. HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO PULL IT OFF ??
My Nanna called me and she was really helpful. I told her my situation and she offered to help me by giving me some money. Thats a big help. I need to wait for my EMA to come trough and i will be happy :)
My mum was being a bitch .. she was...
STUPID !!
Okay … I was being stupid and i did it … Sorry Laura … had to do it. I love you and all but i had to. I LOVE YOU x x x
I don’t know what it is but i’m possitive my mum hates me … I get thrown out and now she wont help me by letting my little sister give me something to help me get money. All i really want to do is cry … but i can’t because i’m in collage. What the hell am i supposed to do?
I’m fucked … I’m going to have to figure something out now. I can’t live like this anymore … Maybe that thing is the best...
OMG !!
I can’t beleive i told Heather about the whole thing … i was drunk and i was like wooow … but i had to tell someone i didn’t think that it was going to be Heather … I love her to bits but i think its because i trust her so much. I don’t understand why though. i thought i would have kept it a secret … OMG !!
The Day.
I’m staying at Roxy’s house because i got thrown out. Roxy’s mum is the best mum i have ever met. She shouted me to go upstairs and eat, i was thinking about everything that has been happning over the past 2 weeks and it hurt me. ive been scared to talk about this for the past 2 weeks and i cant even think what would happen if i turned up home. i want to live life single...
NEW !
Okay … new blog because i didn’t want the friends to know how depressed i really am.
I decided that i want to be able to live life to the max. i want to be able to see what i want and live how i want. When i next see the one i like i want to think wow … hes what i want not what the fuck am i going to do about my family. I’m fucked because i can’t think about hapy...